Trying To Find My Thoughts...
Somewhere along the way I have lost my thoughts. Or so you would think if you ever read this blog. I have sat here a lot lately trying to figure out what to say to explain my absence and lack of posts.
I want to share. I want to keep my family and friends in on what I am going through. But to put the thoughts down on this screen sometimes is just to hard. Honestly it just feels overwhelming. But here we go anyway.
I am doing ok.. I am here and fighting, alive and kicking. OK OK **ducking for cover** Not what you were looking for??? I am well. I am working but only 8 hour shifts 5 days a week. Not killing myself with 12 to 24 hour shifts. I have received my chemo pump and it sits conveniently on my hip by my glove pouch at work. Upside.. Not sitting at the cancer center for hours to get treatments. No one knowing that I am wearing the little bugger. Downside.. No one knows it is there!! Overly helpful Fire Guys who wanna help keep you steady when you climb in the back of a slippery rig grab ya by the waist.. Can we all say it?? "OUCH!" I admit to forgetting it is there and it is just the right height to keep catching and bumping on our new Stryder hydraulic bariatric stretchers. .. Corners and rails going up into it Are . Not . My . Friends.!.
I have been getting my treatments regularly for the last 4 weeks THANK BOB! I am back to having decent blood levels once again. For about 2 months I had to stop due to crappy labs and pneumonia.
Things are looking great so sayeth the almighty M.D.'s. I am having another laparoscopy to remove the larger of the two tumors. Yes that would be the one they missed the first time around.
Ok have I bored you all enough?? The kids are doing great and Heaven help us all I need to get my head checked!!! I got Ethan a cell phone. .
Thanks for the e-mails and calls.
And Yes I am playing SPF on friday!